Fitness Warrior Diva: Today, I cried...

Fitness Warrior Diva: Today, I cried...: ...over shoes. Yes, you heard me right. Today, I cried over shoes. Ridiculous, right? Ehhh, maybe so. It isn't like a few months ago when th...

Today, I cried...

...over shoes. Yes, you heard me right. Today, I cried over shoes. Ridiculous, right? Ehhh, maybe so. It isn't like a few months ago when the perfect Marciano black-and-white stilettos turned up at Nordstom Rack the day before payday. Do you think they were there the next day when I went back to get them? Of course not! Talk about non-buyer's remorse! No, this was much different.

Over the last few years I've developed a penchant for high heels. Stilettos, wedges, platforms, you name it. I like them in colors, unique prints, a pair for every outfit. Maybe it is because I am only 5'4 and wearing heels makes me feel "normal-sized". Or perhaps it is because I found that I could actually walk in them! There's something about putting on a dress and heels that just...well, it just makes me feel better.

So here I am today, working in my closet, trying to organize a little better to make room for my new shoes. New heels? Ummm, no. Because of my torn ACL and impending doom, I mean surgery, I can't wear heels for at least a year. In order to make room for my new flats, I moved all my heels up to the top of my closet.

Initially I felt relief at cleaning up my cluttered closet, but then I realized that I was packing away something I love. I never realized how much I equated heels with my femininity. I felt as though I was packing away everything that made me a woman. As I sat on the floor of my closet, separating my shoes and crying, I came to a realization. I know what you're probably thinking. I realized that shoes don't make the woman, right? That I can still be sexy and feminine in flats? Heck no! I realized that no matter what, I'm destined to live the next year in flat shoes at 5'4 and there isn't a darn thing I can do about it except buy some new shoes. So here is the start of my new shoe collection...

My First Post! And a run-down of why I'm here...

So here's my story...I've been an athlete all my life. As a kid and teenager, it was soccer, volleyball, basketball, track and I loved every moment of it. As I got older and had my kids, got a job, created a home for my family, I failed to make time to continue athletics. I gained weight with each kid and working out just became one more thing that sat at the bottom of my daily to-do list. I never lost the love for fitness...just the motivation to make it a priority.

18 months ago, at my heaviest weight, I decided that I needed to make myself a priority. I started walking, then running, then hitting the gym hard. After losing 40 pounds through diet and exercise, I decided to go back to something I was most passionate about as a teenager- playing soccer. I joined an indoor soccer league and felt that I had finally re-discovered the fun and excitement that I had a child. I was immediately planning future seasons, both indoor and outdoor. Then one day, as I was shooting a goal from a strange angle, I heard a loud pop and went immediately to the ground in intense pain. I was carried off the field and knew instantly that it was something serious. I spent the next week, unable to walk, in bed and found out through an MRI that I had torn my anterior crucial ligament (ACL) and my meniscus. Surgery was imminent.

So why blog about it? A few reasons. The top reason is accountability. The second reason is to keep my family and friends updated. The third reason is because I need a place to share my frustrations! I'd love to get your feedback, so please share :-)